Stretched taut - the things that are becoming increasingly difficult to do

Trying not to worry too much.

Trying not to push too hard and end up pushing everything beyond the boundaries.

Trying to smile and say, "OK, see you around," without fighting the urge to say more.

Trying to shrug and say, "Oh, never mind," without fighting the need to bawl my eyes out.

Trying to think that everything really will be all right if and when the time comes to hold my head high and admit defeat.